intense sadness,a heavy heart,feeling down,discouraged x10000,being downinthepits,i-wanna-die,want to be alone,chronic sadness,the last straw,windows,to bottle up,extreme loneliness,de-motivated x10000,stigmatised,stuck in thoughts,not what you think,helplessness,lack of rationale,no way out but down,being pressed down,>50negative,emotional pain,no want to relapse,emotional trauma,dealing with it,sad,unfeeling,closing in,narrow minded,hopelessness,extremely lonely,not emoing,hating the world,isolation,harbouring hate,crying heart out,suicidal,nobody beside,death,underestimated,>50% negative,having no answers,a state of mind,a kind of supression,pessimistic,hating yourself,